Sometimes, I really don't like my conscience. Yeah, it helps me be a lawful citizen and generally a good person. But then there's moments where it'll make me feel unreasonably guilty. Today is a good example.
I'm leaving my class after finishing a test (which I hopefully passed *crosses fingers*) and there on the corner of the street is an Old Bible Guy. You know the type: white, white haired/balding, kind of wrinkly, in a fussy suit (not the snazzy kind that guys like ~Arthur~ look really good). There's a box beside him filled with miniature, green, new testament bibles.
Now, I volunteer at my local Catholic church for RE (religious education). I was raised a Catholic but I'm not a big fan of religion (or large, single-minded groups in general). I'm not the most faithful, pious person around, needless to say, so I wouldn't know anything about the Bible. I'm really not interested in learning or reading the Bible, miniature or not.
Unfortunately, I had no way of avoiding the friendly Old Bible Guy. But I really didn't want that bible he was oh so eager to offer. So I had an idea. I had my headphones on! I could walk right by this guy while fiddling with my Ipod (because I still hadn't picked any album to listen to yet) and pretend to not hear him! That way I wouldn't have to get yet another mini-bible that I would only toss into a random place never to be seen or heard from again.
So that's what I did.
Half a block away from the Old Bible Guy, my conscience wallops me with a 50 pound bag of guilt. What kind of terrible person am I to ignore a kindly man who only wants to possibly convert me and save my soul? He was doing it out of the kindness of his heart (or probably a sense of moral obligation) and I just pretended he didn't even exist. I felt like scum.
But there seems to be some sort of Old Bible Guy Convention in town because a couple blocks later, Old Bible Guy 2.0 was standing at a street corner!!
I almost tripped myself, I ran to him so fast. I treated him with a bright smile and a cheery "good morning" and why yes, I would love
to have a mini green bible thank you so very much. Have a nice day Old Bible Guy 2.0!
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